I FRIGGIN DID IT!!!!!!!

This is what awaited me on the scales this morning. I DID IT! 30.5 official Kilo's and 18 months later, I have FINALLY reached my goal weight!

Where I will go from here, I really don't know, but for the moment, I am happy and content. Gee it feels good!

Feeling a bit frustrated

It's not friday, and apart from 3 small lollies yesterday afternoon, my diet and exercise have been spot on this week. I can't however, seem to get back to my 60.6 kgs that I was last week. I am today sitting at 60.7, but well it's now friday, and we all knows what happens on the weekend.

I guess I'm just bummed and feeling like a failure, and that i'm never going to get there. 60.6 is that magical mark where I go from being 'overweight' to 'normal' and I just can't seem to crack it again. I feel so close to my goal, but so far away as well.

Yes i'm still not feeling great, and i'm on about a thousand different types of medication to try and kick this, but surely that's not whats holding on to everything.

Gahhhhh anyway, end rant. Lets get on with this............

So it's been a while..........

And I don't even know where to begin....

My last weigh in was 62.3. I am Currently sitting at 61.3. During this past week, I went down to 60.6, which is the lowest I have ever been.

I've spent the last month with a massive head cold, which I am struggling to shake. I have finally made a doctors appointment for today, in the hope that maybe he can do something cause the cold and flu tablets just aren't doing anything. I haven't been to the gym in god-knows how many weeks cause I am struggling to breathe at the best of times, and my energy levels are ZERO. I did go once, and I was out of action for 2 days after that, so no more until I am feeling better.

Last week I started watching what I eat and calorie counting again, as well as doing half an hour on the bike of a night time while watching big brother. It seemed to work dropping from 62.1 to 60.6 in a week, however slacking off over the weekend saw me gain some. It is however just retention and not actual weight so I'm not too concerned.

My goal is still to get to 60kgs, and while i still think I'm a few weeks away from actually getting to it, I'm determined I'm going to do it. I'm wearing size 10 the majority of the time, and it feels fantastic, though I still think I could do with losing some more. I'm sticking with 60 in the meantime, and will reassess when the time comes. The excess flabby skin majorly disheartens me, but i can hide it at least now. It's part of who I am and how I got here.

Don't really think there is too much more to tell, it's been pretty quiet on this front. Will try to post a little bit more regularly......

Week 74 (23) - Weigh In

Last fortnight - 62.5 Kgs
This fortnight - 62.3 Kgs
Loss - 200 grams

Well it's now past my birthday and as expected I didn't get to my goal. Yep I'm a little disappointed, but I'm still proud of how far i have actually come in under 18 months.
Mum kept snapping photos of me at my party on the weekend, and I was actually happy to be in them for a change, instead of removing myself from them like i used to. AND I even liked some of them! That's HUGE for me!

I'm not actually doing anything at all to lose weight at the moment. I still kinda watch what I eat, and don't go overboard, but i'm not exercising and I'm not counting calories. It's the school holidays, and we've been away every weekend, so it's just not going to happen how i want it to, so instead of working myself up about it all, i'm just letting it happen.

I ended up getting down to 61.3kgs during last week, which is the closest I have ever come to my goal weight. Maybe over the coming months, I'll gt there, but i'm not stressing over it at the moment.

week 72 (21) - Weigh In

Last week - 61.9 Kgs
This Week - 62.5 Kgs
Gain - 600 grams

Not at all surprised, but I don't mind either. I went away for the weekend, had a great time, and I know this weight is just retention, not actual weight weight.

Saturday saw me finally get down to 61.5 kgs, though it was on my mothers scales, so i'm not entirely sure how much they differ from my scales at home. Either way I finally cracked through that 61.9 mark this week.

Week 71 (20) - Weigh in

Last week - 62.7 Kgs
This Week - 61.9 Kgs
Loss - 800 grams

I finally broke that 62 barrier in my weekly weigh in! I've done it numerous times in my daily weigh in, but it never follows through to the weekend! We even had family down, and went out to dinner. I have been sick this week though, but I still ate as per normal, and didn't exercise at the end of the week, so I think i've done pretty well to get there.

I'm away this weekend, which always leads to disaster, but i'm hoping at some stage this week i'll see those scales move below 61.9 for the first time. I've always got to that figure, but can't get any lower. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Lachlan has sports day at school tomorrow, so I don't think i'm going to get to the gym like I had originally planned. Will endeavour to get on my bike instead though.

Not much else to really report this week! How boring am I?!

Week 70 - (19) Weigh In

Last week - 63.7 Kgs
This Week - 62.7 Kgs
Loss 1 Kgs

Not as good as i had anticipated, but i guess it's not a gain. I'm REALLY struggling. I've got so much emotional crap going on at the moment, so all i want to do is eat.

The gym is frustrating me. I go and do the nautilus circuit, which involves a whole heap of weight machines, set out in a circuit, that are numbered and timed. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME i go there, no matter what time, there is ALWAYS someone there not doing it. They will sit on the one machine for nearly the entire time i am there, which means that I can't do my workout properly. Yesterday when I went, it was a whole BUNCH of ladies, just sitting on the machine's having a chat. No working out done, just fucking chatting.GRRRRRR can you tell i'm furious? I got half way through the circuit yesterday before having to leave because i couldn't do anymore.

Still really struggling with the thought that i am not going to make my goal before my birthday. It really really sux, and in the end i'm sure i self sabbotage because of it. "Well i'm not going to make it anyway so i'll just eat this." I KNOW i can do this, i just need to get these bullshit thoughts out of my head.