Week 70 - (19) Weigh In

Last week - 63.7 Kgs
This Week - 62.7 Kgs
Loss 1 Kgs

Not as good as i had anticipated, but i guess it's not a gain. I'm REALLY struggling. I've got so much emotional crap going on at the moment, so all i want to do is eat.

The gym is frustrating me. I go and do the nautilus circuit, which involves a whole heap of weight machines, set out in a circuit, that are numbered and timed. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME i go there, no matter what time, there is ALWAYS someone there not doing it. They will sit on the one machine for nearly the entire time i am there, which means that I can't do my workout properly. Yesterday when I went, it was a whole BUNCH of ladies, just sitting on the machine's having a chat. No working out done, just fucking chatting.GRRRRRR can you tell i'm furious? I got half way through the circuit yesterday before having to leave because i couldn't do anymore.

Still really struggling with the thought that i am not going to make my goal before my birthday. It really really sux, and in the end i'm sure i self sabbotage because of it. "Well i'm not going to make it anyway so i'll just eat this." I KNOW i can do this, i just need to get these bullshit thoughts out of my head.