Week 64 (13) - Weigh in

Last Week: 63.2Kgs
This Week: 63.1Kgs
Loss 100 grams

I've been putting writing this off because it's got me really bummed out. I worked my arse off last week, and ended up with a 100 gram loss. I don't know whether I maybe put my body into shock by burning too much, or I'm building muscle from going to the gym, but I'm kinda not impressed.

I did my measurements again, and yes i have lost cms, but not losing the kgs really bums me out. I was so close to my goal, and it's just not moving anywhere, and it's disappointing.

I've taken a step back this week, and haven't been counting calories every day. It's been a huge week, with lots of traveling and emotions (Our first ANZAC day after losing Ashley) and it's not over yet. Tonight we are heading back up to Gympie for a friends 30th, so to be honest I can't even think about counting calories when i don't know what food is going to be available.

Come Monday however, I'm back in the gym, and back into calorie counting, and I'll get these kilo's off me if it kills me. I'm prepared for a gain this week, and i'm hoping that shocking my body again is going to be enough to get the ball rolling again.

Maybe my goal this week was achieveable!

Weighed in this morning at 62.6. I had my goal for this week down to be 62.5 and didn't think I would get there. I don't know what My official goal at the end of the week will be seeing as though the weight usually fluctuates on the weekend, but i'm now optimistic that at some stage over the week to come, my weight will hit that 62.5 mark and hopefully even lower.

Kind of not expecting a loss tomorrow, as I've had 2 days of really good losses (1.2kgs) and it's a low exercise day today with no gym, and probably only 30 mins on the bike. I did my longest session ever on the bile last night, 70 minutes and burnt 550 calories. Added to my session at the gym burning 467 calories in an hour, my total was over 1000 calories officially burnt through exercise for the day. That's a massive first for me, and it felt awesome. It may become a weekly thing, but definitely not a daily thing.

Week 63 (12) - Weigh In

Last Week - 64.5 Kgs
This Week - 63.2 Kgs
Loss - 1.3 Kgs

So close I can smell it!!! On Sunday night I didn't actually expect that I would have lost that much this week. I had retained over the weekend, and thought that because of it I would be up today. I never expected to gain weight this week, but I didn't expect to lose that much either, I was thinking maybe 500 grams if i was lucky, as it WAS the weekend and i always go up over the weekend.

Not really sure what to expect this week to be honest. I'd love to get to 62.5 but I don't think that's going to be possible. I'm aiming for 3 days at the gym, Monday (done), Wednesday and Friday, as well as my bike rides during loser.

I have no idea what i'm going to do when that show finishes in a few weeks. It's been such a big motivation for me for the last 2 years it's been on and generally when it finishes they have masterchef, which unfortunately, doesn't do much in the making me want to exercise department. Quite the opposite actually, it makes me want to eat. I'm sure i'll find something I can watch while i exercise. Maybe i'll download some of the US seasons or something.

My 'baby' girl did so well at the gym this morning. It was her first time going anywhere by herself without mummy or some other adult that she knows really well. I thought there would be a few tears, which would have broken my heart, but she was a trooper. We took her in, got her settled doing some colouring in, and then I said i'd be back soon and left. She didn't even bat an eyelid.

I ducked into the loo before starting, and then headed down to the cardio room, which involved walking past the creche. She was sitting down with her doll drawing without a worry in the world. I did my 15 minutes on the cross trainer, then headed back up to the nautilus circuit, walking past the room again. She was still at the table, though she had moved, and was standing fairly close to a couple of other girls. Not interacting with them, but she was watching and listening to what they were saying, which is pretty big for her. Normally she would shy away from other kids and just sit any be by herself. When I was finished she was back to drawing. She'd seen the real baby 'Rhys' in her travels so all was good with the world. So proud of my little munchkin. She's growing up :(

Time to go and do some housework and organise some lunch :)

Easter weight gain update

After a not-so-great gain over Easter, Today I can officially say that I've lost it all, and then some. Down to 63.5 this morning. I did 2 sessions at the gym this week, and actually pulled up much better today than I do normally. I often get really shaky afterwards, guessing it's lack of muscle strength. I feel like jelly! It's not a food shake though thank god. I have quite a stiff back and neck today though, I must have slept stupid, when I did actually get some sleep that is.

It's the last day of school holidays today (apart from the weekend) and I think i'm going to miss it. No stressing out of a morning, no homework of an afternoon, it's been bloody lovely. The kids have been really good too, which has been awesome.

I think Madi's in for a shock next week, not having them here, and having to go to the gym on her own. I don't think she is going to cope real well with that at all, but she is going to have to get used to it. She's off to big school next year, so being away from mummy at times will do her wonders.

Week 62 (11) - Weigh In

Last week - 64.2 Kgs
This Week - 64.5 Kgs
Gain - 300 grams

Easter........... Need I say more? Eating hasn't been great for me, and my weigh in today was even worse than yesterday's. I'm girly AGAIN, hormonal and have just been totally undisciplined in the eating department. We went out camping last Thursday night so we could spend the night with Mum and Dad, and i've just had the rest of the weekend off, enjoying my little family and doing what I want. I'm sure a lot of this extra weight is just fluid, but i have no doubt there will probably be a little gain in there, but i can deal with that.

I got down to 63.7 kgs last week, and am now back up to 64.9 so i have a bit of work to do this week. I'm hoping to hit the gym today, but need to find some coinage laying around to put the kids in creche.

I pulled up fairly ok after my first gym session. The next morning i was relatively pain free, just a little tender through the chest and shoulders. That evening however, I was really quite sore, and that continued into the next day. I went back to the gym the day after that, which actually ended up stopping the chest/shoulder pains, so that was awesome. My legs didn't pull up so great after that session though, and on Thursday I could barely walk. I think it was the stair master that did it. 5 minutes on that thing and I was ready to die lol. Burnt 500+ calories in 58 minutes at the gym so I was pretty happy with that.

Waiting for the wreckers to call me back about a new door handle for my car, and then i'll think about heading to the gym. I'd really love to be getting dressed and heading there now while I still have the motivation, but I need to wait for this call.

I think my mother was very surprised with my additional weightloss when she saw me on Thursday afternoon. She called me 'The incredible shrinking Mummy" and asked how much weight i'd lost now. It's a very good feeling when someone else notices all the hard work that you put in. Now just to get back into it and lose these last 5 kilo's.

Gym session #1

I did it. Only nearly felt like crying once. I'm so brave lol. Yep, I was the biggest person in the room, and the weakest person known to man, but I'll get there. My upper body strength is non-existent I've discovered, especially when it comes to pushing things upwards.

We started off with 15 minutes cardio. I hoped on the eliptical and went to work. I then attempted to do the stair master, but got about a minute into that before Whit had decided he was finished and expected us to move on with him. So not impressed with that.

Nest stop was the Nautilus Circuit room. Apparently some of these machines aren't made for short nor weak people. I struggled with a few of them, the ones that involved pushing the bar up above your head, and the dumbell curl type one. I was too short for that one and just couldn't work it. Next time I go, I should be alone and not getting rushed through it, well I hope anyway, so i'll check out the women's weight room and see what it's got. I really wanted to have a go on the rowing machine's but that didn't happen either.

We then headed upstairs to the free weights kind of area, the boys wanted to do a couple of calf raises and that's where the machines were. Boy did I feel totally out of place up there. There were even some old birds up there totally smashing it out. I did a set of 30kg calf raises and then managed to bust out 2x 65kg one's, which officially weighed more than me.

Madi didn't cope great in the creche, she said she missed me and wasn't going back. Got news for her and unfortunately it's all bad. It's going to be worse when she doesn't have the boys there with her!

Soreness levels aren't actually too bad this morning. Not as bad as I was expecting. If i move certain ways I can feel it, but it's bearable. Total calorie burn was 444 for 1 hour.

I ended up coming home and getting a massive case of the guilts when watching the Biggest Loser, so got back on my bike and did another 25 minutes, burning another 214 calories

Week 61 (10) - Weigh in

Last week - 64.5 Kgs
This week - 64.2 Kgs
Loss - 300g

I'm kind of surprised that I lost anything this week. As I said in the last post, I've been sick all week, and until last night hadn't even CONSIDERED doing any exercise. I've learnt from my mistakes in the past, that i need to rest my body when I'm sick other wise the sickness is going to hang around longer and hit me harder. I ate sensibly most of the time though, which i guess is what has made me drop weight, instead of going up or staying the same.

Tonight is going to be my first trip to the gym, and to be honest, i'm crapping my pants. Darren and Whit will both be coming with me, and the kids going into the creche, but i've put this off for sooooo long due to image issues, and they are STILL haunting me.

I'm also scared about the fact that I'm going to get there, and hate it, due to these issues, and then want to quit. I've just signed up for a 12 month membership, so quitting is just going to have to be not an option. We are starting in the "nautilus" circuit room and probably some cardio as well. Weights are not my friend, but I really need to work on my upper body and core strength.

I'm not liking the thought of sore muscles, and I know i'm going to get absolutely hammered. Bring on a week of torture. xoxo

PS. I really should do some measurements before i start on this new part of my journey. I know that my weight isn't always going to go down as i increase muscle, so i'd hope that the measurements do.